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Tue, May. 13th, 2008, 02:26 am
end

If i close my eyes, i can still remember the first day. I was so scared and annoyed and angry and excited. I had no idea what to expect or what to do in my new situation. I wasn't sure if i had made a mistake, or if i would be the happiest girl in queens. I never expected to fall in love with all of my friends like i did. I never thought i could make another group so tight and so close so fast like the perfection i had made at home ver the past 18 years; but it happened. 
the first day we all said our awkward hello's i knew, looking at the group, who would be the few i could honestly call friends forever. We grew so close over these past 9 months, and i wouldn't replace them for the world. I love my St. Johns crew, i love everything about each of them.
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Tue, Apr. 8th, 2008, 11:08 pm
homsick

At home, when i'm really sad i lay on the kitchen floor. the kitchen is a beautiful yellow, and it makes me feel like i'm outside in the warm gorgeous sun and i close my eyes and i cry until i am better, or even until fall asleep...

I am at school now, and we don't have a yellow kitchen, we don't have a kitchen or even a yellow room. so i lay on my dorm room floor and i close my eyes and i try and remember what it feels like to lay on the kitchen floor and i try and imagine my beautiful yellow walls and the sunshine...

but it's not the same
& i'm still sad

Mon, Oct. 15th, 2007, 05:23 pm
...

Long time, no see LJ
I have missed this...

I live in the city now. New York!! wow right? i know.
I miss cows
i miss corn fields
and wild flowers
and my friends
and my family...
but i am happy here...i promise
my new friends are amazing and i love them already
this new life is exciting and 'keeps me on my toes" **haha...inside joke**  and i love it as well

...so this is college...i guess that means im growing up...

i sill feel
basicklyillegal

Sun, Apr. 22nd, 2007, 11:49 pm
oh wow..

last night while trying to fall asleep...i remembered i had a livejournal!
its been a while...so heres a brief overview:

Good:
he loves me
high school...almost over!!
trips to europe
new friends
winning
college <3
skype
lap tops
07 love all the time
spot lights
tiaras
kroger brand cookies
coffee
pictures
1030AM wake up


Bad:
lies
rumors
shit friends
high school almost over
forgin friends
moving
moneyless bum
lame people
boxed lunch
breakfast
homeless
friendless
he loves me not

Wed, Aug. 16th, 2006, 01:15 am
boo

after all that bullshit...
i remember why i stopped being a fan
kind of a waste im a bit upset
the end was good i guess
but the rest could suck a homeless mans balls
*sorry that was a little nasty*

Fri, Aug. 11th, 2006, 04:22 pm

i got my license....
yay me!

Fri, Jul. 7th, 2006, 12:19 am
a much needed break...

vacation here i come!!!

Tue, Jun. 13th, 2006, 01:26 am
a toss up it is...

i dont like to update...but when theres vodka everything comes easier...
ok well this is the thing, he and i are hitting it off GreAT!! and i like him,...a lot...but i dont know if hes in it cuz he lieks me, or in it for the rest of the reasons...
i want it to go well, so part of me doesnt want the answer to the qestions, but i mean i deserve to know right? i dono, i dont want to riun things by making it weird, and asking to much

*did that once already this year and it sucked*

so i mean im gonna go with it, and him, and see what happenes with us, i like the thought of an us...i hope theres an us in the end

if u have words of wisdom DO share
if your gonna say somethig bitchy...fuck u

Fri, Jun. 2nd, 2006, 01:55 pm

ima senior...werid

Sun, May. 7th, 2006, 12:41 pm

oh prom...enough said


xoxo

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