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Tue, May. 13th, 2008, 02:26 am

If i close my eyes, i can still remember the first day. I was so scared and annoyed and angry and excited. I had no idea what to expect or what to do in my new situation. I wasn't sure if i had made a mistake, or if i would be the happiest girl in queens. I never expected to fall in love with all of my friends like i did. I never thought i could make another group so tight and so close so fast like the perfection i had made at home ver the past 18 years; but it happened. 
the first day we all said our awkward hello's i knew, looking at the group, who would be the few i could honestly call friends forever. We grew so close over these past 9 months, and i wouldn't replace them for the world. I love my St. Johns crew, i love everything about each of them.

Tue, Apr. 8th, 2008, 11:08 pm

At home, when i'm really sad i lay on the kitchen floor. the kitchen is a beautiful yellow, and it makes me feel like i'm outside in the warm gorgeous sun and i close my eyes and i cry until i am better, or even until fall asleep...

I am at school now, and we don't have a yellow kitchen, we don't have a kitchen or even a yellow room. so i lay on my dorm room floor and i close my eyes and i try and remember what it feels like to lay on the kitchen floor and i try and imagine my beautiful yellow walls and the sunshine...

but it's not the same
& i'm still sad

Mon, Oct. 15th, 2007, 05:23 pm

Long time, no see LJ
I have missed this...

I live in the city now. New York!! wow right? i know.
I miss cows
i miss corn fields
and wild flowers
and my friends
and my family...
but i am happy here...i promise
my new friends are amazing and i love them already
this new life is exciting and 'keeps me on my toes" **haha...inside joke**  and i love it as well

...so this is college...i guess that means im growing up...

i sill feel

Sun, Apr. 22nd, 2007, 11:49 pm
oh wow..

last night while trying to fall asleep...i remembered i had a livejournal!
its been a while...so heres a brief overview:

he loves me
high school...almost over!!
trips to europe
new friends
college <3
lap tops
07 love all the time
spot lights
kroger brand cookies
1030AM wake up

shit friends
high school almost over
forgin friends
moneyless bum
lame people
boxed lunch
he loves me not

Wed, Aug. 16th, 2006, 01:15 am

after all that bullshit...
i remember why i stopped being a fan
kind of a waste im a bit upset
the end was good i guess
but the rest could suck a homeless mans balls
*sorry that was a little nasty*

Fri, Aug. 11th, 2006, 04:22 pm

i got my license....
yay me!

Fri, Jul. 7th, 2006, 12:19 am
a much needed break...

vacation here i come!!!

Tue, Jun. 13th, 2006, 01:26 am
a toss up it is...

i dont like to update...but when theres vodka everything comes easier...
ok well this is the thing, he and i are hitting it off GreAT!! and i like him,...a lot...but i dont know if hes in it cuz he lieks me, or in it for the rest of the reasons...
i want it to go well, so part of me doesnt want the answer to the qestions, but i mean i deserve to know right? i dono, i dont want to riun things by making it weird, and asking to much

*did that once already this year and it sucked*

so i mean im gonna go with it, and him, and see what happenes with us, i like the thought of an us...i hope theres an us in the end

if u have words of wisdom DO share
if your gonna say somethig bitchy...fuck u

Fri, Jun. 2nd, 2006, 01:55 pm

ima senior...werid

Sun, May. 7th, 2006, 12:41 pm

oh prom...enough said


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